Every New Day

The infinite possibilities each day holds should stagger the mind.
The sheer number of experiences I could have is uncountable, breathtaking, and I'm sitting here refreshing my inbox.
We live trapped in loops, reliving a few days over and over, and we envision only a handful of paths laid out ahead of us.
We see the same things each day, we respond the same way, we think the same thoughts, each day a slight variation on the last, every moment smoothly following the gentle curves of societal norms.
We act as if we just get through today, tomorrow our dreams will come back to us.

And no, I don't have all the answers. I don't know how to jolt myself into seeing what each moment could become. But I do know one thing: The solution doesn't involve watering down my every little idea and creative impulse for the sake of some day easing my fit into a mold. It doesn't involve tempering my life to better fit someone's expectations. It doesn't involve constantly holding back for fear of shaking things up.

For me, the solution is what I'm doing right now: enjoying the nights that I stay up until 4AM doing absolutely nothing of importance. Running outside every time it rains, just to enjoy how it feels on my skin. Eating peanut butter out of the jar with a spoon. Spending time with my best friend even though we already know each other inside out. Not looking at the calories on a bag of chips because I'm comfortable with how I look. Hugging my mom 5 times a day. Thanking God for clouds and rain. Laughing with my dad. Play-fighting with Darrel. Going to Wal-Mart with a purpose but ending up not finding what I needed, but finding something else that I needed more instead. Blowing on dandelions even though there's nothing in the world I need to wish for. Spending an entire afternoon in a field just looking at the clouds, or a whole night just looking at the stars. Opening my window when it rains at night because God couldn't have created a more perfect lullaby.

And I couldn't have asked for a more perfect summer.


♥,
~Amy